Oh yes, I remember. Now I have to I have to give you guys a trigger warning for this one. Uh this talk does contain notes of suicide, depression, more severe things.That's why it was so important to bring it up. I'm like, why am I not remembering. Yeah.So if anyone is uncomfortable with any of that, you can take a step out now. Okay, really good. Okay, so yes, um this is not a very light topic.So afterwards we are going to talk about it, but I think it's one that's very important. Uh so give it up for me El ...