[applause] It was another long, agonizing day of administrative duty. Internal affairs had pulled me from the streets nine weeks prior because I was involved in another use of force. By this time in my career, I was tired of the process, the people, and the politics.And quite frankly, I didn't want to be here anymore. I remember leaving the agency or the department going home to an empty house. My only son at the time was 7 years old and he was away with family for the holidays.It was around Thanksgiving an ...